Classic and Contemporary Poetry
THE STORY OF BROTHER PAUL (SUGGESTED BY A PICTURE BY FRANK DICKSEE), by GEORGE MURRAY (1830-1910) First Line: Dear friend, you question me if I Last Line: I sleep at last, beneath the sod! Subject(s): Dicksee, Sir Frank (1853-1928); Love - Loss Of; Monks; Pain; Suffering; Misery | ||||||||
Dear friend, you question me if I Am happy, and I thus reply: How can I be so when my life Seems an interminable strife Between a pure, but earthly love, And voices calling from above? You start: my words sound strange and wild, The language of some wayward child, And so you marvelI forget, 'Tis six long years since last we met You knew me then as Paul D'Estrés, You find me "Brother Paul" to-day, A pale, worn monk, whose life of woes Is nearing to a welcome close. Nay, speak not yet: for though I hate My tragic story to relate, Here in this Convent-garden, where The sunlight streams, the flowers are fair, And all around seems breathing balm, As though each restless heart to calm Still, I will bare my inmost soul To you who pity and condole. No lapse of time can e'er destroy The hallowed memory of the joy I felt, when first I gazed upon The face of Gabrielle Yvonne. Your subtlest words can scarce express The magic of her loveliness: Her guileless eyes and golden hair Still haunt my vision everywhere, And in the Convent when I paint Scenes from the life of some sweet Saint, Some priceless manuscript to grace, Each picture but repeats her face. Our souls were onewe had no thought But for each otherlife was naught While we were parted, and I swore Fond vows, still cherished as of yore. Our homes, before my father died, Lay closely nestling side by side; My castle now with all its lands Has passed forever from my hands, And, had my pride not met this fall, I would not here be "Brother Paul." My father diedhis life had been A course of recklessness and sin, Since his young wife had passed away And for the first time, on the day When with vain pomp his limbs were laid Within the ancestral chapel's shade, I learnt that if our ancient name Could be redeemed from scorn and shame, I must at once prepare to roam A ruined exile from my home. But worse than all, my Gabrielle's sire Cursed my wrecked fortunes in his ire, And sternly bade me ne'er again Set foot within his broad domain. EnoughI left my natal place, But saved our honour from disgrace. Years passed: where'er my footsteps sped, My pencil won me fameand bread And in my paintings you can trace Always the same angelic face, For earthly maid almost too fair, With guileless eyes and golden hair, Far from this cloisteryears ago A youth whom erst I used to know Here in loved Normandy, revealed News he might better have concealed: "Thy fair-haired Gabrielle is wed They lied, and told her thou wast dead!" I fell beneath this lightning stroke, And, from my trance when I awoke, Six months, with raving frenzy rife, Were cancelled from my weary life. 'Twas then that cankered by despair, Dazed by the world's remorseless glare I passed within this Convent wall To bear the name of "Brother Paul." And am I happy now, you ask: Behold me. Do I wear a mask? I scourge my flesh, I fast, I pray, But in each moment of each day, Between myself and Heaven I trace The shadow of a saintly face, For earthly maid almost too fair, With guileless eyes and golden hair. One eve, my sorrows to allay, I sought in solitude to pray, And while I meekly stood before The sombre Abbey's open door, I heard some footsteps lightly fall On the paved walk that skirts the wall, And as I turned my glances fell Upon the face of Gabrielle. Our eyes but for a moment met In one sad gaze of fond regret; Then in dead silence passing on, The woman that I loved was gone. Close by her side she led a child, Whose lips angelically smiled, While his small hand was reaching nigh Two butterflies that floated by. Ah! Who can guess the yearning pain With which I saw my love again, Or who can blame me for the sin Of musing on what might have been? With a strange thrill of tender joy I gazed upon the lovely boy, Till both his mother's self and he Seemed to belong, by right, to me, And fancy tempted me to deem The past a false and evil dream. But reason woke: I passed within The Abbey's gloom, and strove to win Christ's pardon for the thoughts that still Confused my soul against my will. And now my hapless tale is told, One vision haunts me as of old One image never will depart Till Death shall hush this throbbing heart, And, trusting to the love of God, I sleep at last, beneath the sod! | Discover our Poem Explanations and Poet Analyses!Other Poems of Interest...PARTHENOPHIL AND PARTHENOPHE: MADRIGAL 14 by BARNABE BARNES SONNETS IN SHADOWS: 1 by ARLO BATES IN PRAISE OF PAIN by HEATHER MCHUGH THE SYMPATIZERS by JOSEPHINE MILES LEEK STREET by LAURE-ANNE BOSSELAAR A BALLAD FOR CHRISTMAS-TIDE by GEORGE MURRAY (1830-1910) A DREAM ABOUT THE ASPEN by GEORGE MURRAY (1830-1910) A LEGEND OF THE CHILD JESUS; WRITTEN FOR A CHILD by GEORGE MURRAY (1830-1910) |
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