Classic and Contemporary Poetry
HERE IS MUSIC: 20, by AUSTIN PHILIPS First Line: How do I know I love you? Last Line: Bodily death ... But never sad satiety. Subject(s): Friendship; Love; Relationships | ||||||||
HOW do I know I love You? Oh, draw near And listen, Dear. Drop down afresh, anew, In that deep, spacious chair Which fronts this wood-fed fire. Sit silent there, While red-tongued flames aspire, Lift your loved eyes and feed My eager lips with inspiration, bring Right words for my rare need. Give ease to stumbling speech, Give ease, I say, and teach Me, for this once, to touch true master-string. Help me achieve expression, aid me sing A song, Not long Nor over-skill'd, But simple, faithful, fill'd With feeling: such as wells Forth from man's soul and tells Its fond, full-flowing tale Albeit in numbers frail Flood-like, involuntary, Crystal in cadency, Whose high integrity Carries conviction, comes to strike and ring Clear on the heart, because itself heart-issuing. How do I know I love You? Hearken now To words which flow, Fluid and fast, fire-new, Fanned into life beneath Your spell, that nought shall shake Save dusty Death, Nor mortal hand may break. Learn that, adown long days, Walking in spiritual loneliness, Hungry for Love, Love's ways I sought unceasing; found What seemed Love's Self, yet crowned With further failure that which seemed success, Or grasped flung handkerchief in recklessness; Found sex Perplex And fog me, bind Body, leave heart, soul, mind Insatiate; in despair Yet further sought; found Fair Lose all allure, delight, Turn foul before my sight, Tedious in tenancy, Odious in intimacy, Nay, even spiritually Forge chains more harsh than solitude could bring When I walked lonely, loveless, wandered wayfaring. How do I know I love You? Learn there lives One law which gives Light, comprehension, clue To Love: Law framed by Fate, Law Median-like and learned By me, alas! full late: Law whichhad I discerned Its truth long sincehad saved Me hungry morrows, midnight miseries, Wild woes engrossed, engraved On my sad heart's core, dumb And cruel gridings, numb, Cold griefs, remorse, regrets, adulteries Of soul and body, blatant blasphemies 'Gainst Love Who strove Gracious, day after day, To point appropriate way, In lofty charity To lend his light to me, To aid, in God-like ruth, My eyes to grasp the truth, To lift the lead-like cloud That fogged them, bid my proud Deaf spirit shake fell shroud, Look full on light, so learn true love must be Not willed nor sought, but instant ... all involuntary. How do I know I love You? List, at least, That I, who feast Eyes famished, fond and true, On your fair face this night, In all my life but twice Loved at first sight, Leaped swift to sacrifice My soul and self, would lay First-fruits on one high altar; servant, priest, Stand minist'ring alway, Loyal to last, least hour, Possess'd as by some Pow'r Outside myself, aware of tranquil breast, Informed as ne'er before, with Peace and Rest, And yet Firm-set On deed not dream, Knowing heart, brain, soul teem With thirst for action, ask Time still to compass task Not all unworthy, prove Me worthy thus, of love Be this by minstrelsy Or braver servicetry Humbly to glorify Her whose incomparable Beauty came Like lightning flash to fill my life with freshened flame. Once was when Love's fierce light Flashed through me, still'd My soul, yet filled It sudden with glad, bright Thirst for accomplishment, Hunger for service, brought New life, and sent Swift, sacred message, taught Me deep, much-hid desire, Beacon'd my boyish bosom, touched my heart With fierce, essential fire, With visions brave and boon, When first I gazed, that June Evening at sunset, ere across, athwart Parched bracken, purple shadows passed to swart. ... What time, Sublime, Before my eyes, My MotherMalvernwise, Goodly and kind and grave, Smiled on Her son, and gave Him gracious greeting, stood Guarding Her gallant brood, Glad hills for background: these Sloping to terraces Whence, 'yond lush meads, tall trees, She watched sweet Severn saunter summer plain, And smiled on Worcester's Tow'r, and Tewkesbury's faint, dim fane. The second time Love came, Resistless, swift, To soothe, yet lift My soul with instant flame, Was unforgettable hour When first on my mazed ears The magic pow'r Of wondrous voice brought tears To hung'ring heart and sent My stricken senses reeling 'neath its sound, So that my being went Dissolving, felt the blood, Stirred to strong spate, fast flood, Flow, reinforced and forward, from profound Arterial recesses, riot, bound, Bid me To be Yours, cross and take You in my arms and make You once more mine, re-live Lives lost long since, revive Imperial Pasts, renew Aeons-old retinue, Incomparable sequences Of lost existences, Lived to sweet cadences Welling from Hermy heart's primordial choice Who blends the Music of the Spheres in one blest voice. You know, now, why I love You. But know, too, My Dear, that though You fill me through and through With deep, high Happiness, Rest me, yet stimulate, Help me express My inmost self, abate Unrest; awake, stir, lull, Excite my senses by your beauty; bring My life's flood to the full, Bid me touch heights, before Scarce-dreamed of, nevermore To be beheld, whate'er my wandering, Still less to be achieved 'fore Death shall sting And chill And will Me into dust, Make merciless end to lust Of living ... know, Heart's Emperess, that I Ask naught, nor crave nor cry For union; but sight, see What is, and what must be; In calm resolvedness Bow before pitiless Fate; in serene distress Accept harsh ruling, stricken, steadfast stand In Stoic apatheia, 'neath her sharp command. You know, now, how I love You. Learn, toolest Aught but the ultimate best Exist between us two In Love's sweet, sacred way I would not have, nor ask, That things to-day Were otherwise, nor bask In Falsehood, fearing Truth. ... Since I was born some dozen years too soon, Or You, who yet have Youth, Two full decades too late To be my body's mate, I ask, I crave, I seek but one frail boon In this my lessening life's late afternoon, That we Should be, Still to the end, Stimulus, strength, true Friend Each unto each, thus glean In time of joy, gloom, teen Fortitude, faith to stand Firm to our souls' command, Spiritual lovers, give Greatly, so largely live, Gen'rous and gladly strive, Go forward, till such time as comes to me Bodily death ... but never sad satiety. | Discover our Poem Explanations and Poet Analyses!Other Poems of Interest...AMERICAN WEDDING by ESSEX HEMPHILL PUNK HALF PANTHER by JUAN FELIPE HERRERA LET US GATHER IN A FLOURISHING WAY by JUAN FELIPE HERRERA THE DIFFERENCE by RICHARD HOWARD THE ADVANCE OF THE FATHER by FANNY HOWE A BALLADE OF GREEN FIELDS; FOR F.W.M. by AUSTIN PHILIPS |
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