Classic and Contemporary Poetry
MEDITATION, by RUTH L. TEISSEDRE First Line: I hear the chapel bell again Last Line: Now a walking prayer to an unknown god. Subject(s): Consolation; Meditation; Remorse; Sin | ||||||||
I hear the chapel bell again Falling light as springtime rain Dripping on my heart in pain For I, the rain have forsaken. The rain is of the earthly scheme That molds the world in fleshly theme Of fleshly things I can but dream From me, my liberty is taken. A sinner there was and a sinner there lives In the vale where the moon stood still. A man who with soul of bitterness gives His prayers to his god as he will. Hypocrite! Liar and traitor am I! Nor can any amount of regret Wipe out the pictures burned into my soul Lord! You know I've tried to forget! It isn't so much that I've fasted and prayed But you know, in your all-seeing way That the hardest of all the debt that I've paid Were the hours of drink and of play. When every wanton held close to my breast Was an uglier vision of lips I had pressed. Lips I thought pure till I found them out, Virgin, I thought. Ha! Now I could shout To the stands of the earth and her lovers would hear The name of the woman they once held dear! The woman who loved, and kissed and was gone, Leaving love-blest night and a bitter dawn. Then my heart led me with a measured step To the house at the foot of the hill Where faces and voices were silent kept And the occupants thrived on the thrill Of a prayer well whispered, a duty done, A sacred table laid bare, A cell and a soul from its body gone To climb the golden stair. I watched and wondered and marveled that they Lived there thus peaceful and calm, And I vowed that for sensual sins I would pay Work for my softened palm, Work for my body made white with the life Of a man who loved laughter well, And I entered that house at the foot of the hill, Unknowingly entered IHell. I take up the Book for consolation. "O Lord consider my meditation Rebuke me not in thine indignation But forgive thou me, a sinner!" But prayers that fall from an empty heart Will not concession from heaven start. Did I say empty? A pain-thronged mart Set up in the soul of a sinner. For hours are long and days are years In the chapel built for the Saviour's tears. My heart shrieks out that I'm going mad Fettered to pace so slow and sad Tied to such goodness! Such holiness pure! While my mind rebels with a faith unsure Uncertain of God or heaven or hell Knowing only desire! That knowing too well! O unfaithful love! A heart that writhes Surrenders to you these exacting tithes A soul, a flesh that will soon be sod: Now a walking prayer to an unknown god. | Discover our Poem Explanations and Poet Analyses!Other Poems of Interest...SEVEN STREAMS OF NEVIS by GALWAY KINNELL CHANEL NO. 5 by LAURE-ANNE BOSSELAAR BROTHERS: 4. IN MY OWN DEFENSE by LUCILLE CLIFTON THE RING AND THE CASTLE by AMY LOWELL APPELLATE JURISDICTION by MARIANNE MOORE ADELAIDE AND JOHN WILKES BOOTH by EDGAR LEE MASTERS PRESIDENT GARFIELD by GEORGE SANTAYANA THE WILLIAM P. FRYE [FEBRUARY 28, 1915] by JEANNE ROBERT FOSTER |
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